moving on...letting go...

how should I teach these eyes of mine

of not seeing your face every time I close them at night

how should I teach these ears of mine

of not hearing your voice whispering sweet-nothings and calling out my name

how should I teach these hands of mine

of not holding yours every time I see those lovers passing me by

how should I teach these arms of mine

of not feeling your warmth every time it's cold outside

how should I teach this lips of mine

of not kissing you and still taste you even if we're far apart

how should I teach this heart of mine

of not loving you even if there's still too much of it inside of me

moving on is never easy...and letting you go is the hardest part...

i hate you...

I have been thinking about this lately

Of how much I am hating you

And so I made a list right here

Of the reasons why I despise you so

You're breaking my senses apart

And you do it so effortlessly

You're always lingering inside my mind

And you don't have a plan of moving out of it

I feel so incomplete and harder to breathe

When I'm not with you

And when I see your face and kiss your lips

You make me want to want you more

You do these things that drive me crazy

And always catch me off guard with surprises

You also have a habit of reading my mind

That's why you always know what to do

These are just some of the reasons why I am hating you so...

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I'm Still Here...

I had a simple thought of calling you
Or send a simple message just to tell you that I miss you
But it appears it wasn't really so simple
Since you have never been, for me, accessible

You want me to see that you are happy
Is it only a fabrication or are you really?
Because I know from deep inside my soul
You're hiding your true feelings, fooling your own

You have been clouding up my mind
Every hour of every sleepless nights
I know there's something wrong but I can't do anything
Because you wouldn't allow me, your pride is your bearing

I just hope in some miracle this message will reach you
And in one way or the other you will believe that it's true
I promised you that I am still a friend until we are old
Just let me know that you need me, I'm not gonna leave you out in the cold.

10-31-2010

Yes, I Know...

I know I've said that I'm just gonna stand here and watch you burn down
I know I've said that I'm just gonna stand here and watch you cry out
I know I've said that I'm just gonna stand here and let you live your life
But deep inside I want you to know that I really wanna try to fix you...

I know I've said that I wouldn't give a damn in whatever you wanna do
I know I've said that I wouldn't give a damn in whatever you wanna say
I know I've said that I wouldn't give a damn in whatever is happening to your life
But deep inside I want you to know that I really wanna try to comfort you...

I know that you are unhappy, I can feel it in my soul
I know that you are trying so hard, because you've got no other choice
I know that you are lying, you know that I know you so well
I know that you are trapped and wanting to get out, and yet you stayed

I can save you, you know that...but you don't wanna be saved...

Questions...

Why am I still here

Why do I still hold on

Why am I still hurting

Why do I still love you

What happened to us

What was I thinking

What happened to the promises

What are you doing

Where are we now

Where have you gone

Where did my heart go

Where is my destination

How did it happen

How did it fell apart

How can you say that you can't live without me

How can I make myself forget how much I love you so

Hatinggabi

I.
Sa sinag ng buwan mula sa aking bintana
Kariktan ng iyong mukha sumagi sa diwa
Lubhang pinapangarap na masilayan kita
Maramdaman ang paglingap sa damdaming dukha
II.
Inaapuhap ang ngiti sa iyong mga mata
Tanging lunas sa pagtangis ng puso ko, Sinta
Tinig mo ang syang nais na marinig sa t’wina
Imaheng walang kupas aking naaalala
III.
Sa paglipas ng gabi at hanggang sa umaga
Dilim man ay datnan, lamig man ay manalasa
Makamtam ko lamang ang tamis at ang pag-asa
Unos sa aking damdamin hindi alintana


09-02-09

Like A Fire

Like a fire burning in my soul
my love for you I just can’t control
Like a fire consuming me whole
you have my heart, my body, my all

Like a fire with an undying flame
I will always stay in love this way
Like a fire as hot as the burning sun
I am wanting you more and more here in my arms

Like a fire with colors so warm and bright
I can see our future without any shadow, just a lovely sight
Like a fire, unstoppable, powerful and true
remember these words, ” I will always love you…”

06-04-09

I'll See You When I See You

We’ve met in a world full of unfamiliar people
But the first time we talked it’s like I’ve known you from before
We became friends and we even got closer
Secrets were revealed that nobody else knows

You were in a pursuit of your own happiness
I’m just here to lend a hand and make you smile
It came as a surprise that we now talk for hours
A day that’s full of different stories, nights full of emotion

We had our share of troubles and sorrow
Parted ways for a little while but here we are
Back into each others lives, leaving the tears behind
Glad to be back home again, never letting go

You have a special place inside my heart
You are always on my mind
I have never been this close to anyone
Someone who is so near yet so far apart…


02-02-09

Whenever I See Your Lovely Face (song)

This is the edited version of my poem "Whenever I See Your Charming Face", with guitar chords composed by Eliad Pacete.

Intro: C-Am-F-G
Verse: C-Am-F-G

I.
Your lovely eyes that warms my heart

Makes my day bloom and sorrows depart

Every time I feel bad in a day

Just one look at you makes it all okay

II.
Once you've come near me

I feel those trembling waves of the sea

And when you come talk to me

It's just like I’m in ecstasy


Chorus: Am-F-C-G


Going through the mem'ries that I had

Love always treated me so bad

I wouldn’t know if I will need some space

Whenever I see your lovely face!

III.
Your smile that burns my soul

Times we're together I always recall

I like you in and out

What I feel I wanted to shout


Adlib: Em-F

Em-F-G

IV.
How much I feel for you

Explaining wouldn't do

All I know is that I miss you

On my mind is only you

C-Am-F-G

You

Five years ago -

I saw you...

looked satisfied by yourself

happy of doing things alone

treasure the true friends around you

talked to me and became one of your acquaintances

Then I knew you...

when you started opening up yourself

when you loved someone but left alone

when you isolated yourself from other people

when you kept those secrets from me

Then I loved you...

since that day you handed me that first letter

because you showed me the other you

even though I'm not sure about your feelings

through all those days that I've spent with you

But I missed you...

because you're not seeing me often

because those months moved so fast

because you never gave me a chance to make you feel me

because that first kiss fluttered my system

After three years until now - as I am -

Seeing you...

I remember the first days we became friends

I remember the nights we had long conversations

I remember how that first letter changed my life

I remember the love I gave for you alone

Knowing you...

now you are much different from before

made me upset then took revenge on you

I felt sorry for not seeing the real reasons behind that tragedy in my life

I came to realize that I still care for you

Loving you...

gave me enough reasons to give myself to you

provided me strength to know if you love me

shut down the pride of living without you

made me whole by bearing your child in me

Missing you...

I worry about you every single time

as I sleep I want you here by my side

makes me treasure the wholeness of you

I really want to spend the rest of my life with you

- Rhix Abad, 7/8/1999 (8:20-9:40pm)